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I am ready!

I am ready

I decided that it was time to stop worrying that I wasn’t ready to write and to start focusing on just ‘being ready’. This was the focus for this artwork – I did not think about it, my aim was to be ready and see what happened.

After the artwork I didn’t have a lot of insights come up from the drawing, so I asked Soul if there was a message for me and used a technique called left hand, right hand writing to capture the conversation between myself and soul. When doing the writing, my non-dominant hand (right) was the voice of soul to help me get out of my head (represented in italics below).

Soul, is there a message for me?

Hello. I am here. Do you see me?

I’m not sure. Where are you on the page?

I am the page. I am the colours. I am form and I am the space without form.
I am you looking at me.
Do you see me now?

I don’t ‘see you’ per se and I don’t see me either. I just have a pleasant feeling when I look at this image. I find it kind of relaxing.

You perceive me then. I am here with you, helping you to clear a path of clarity so we can communicate more freely. You still have some clutter getting in the way of our connection.

How do I clear the clutter so we have the space to start writing?

Focus. Patience. An unwavering belief in yourself and this process.
Where there can be no doubt, you will see me clearly.
Where there is peace, you will feel me.
Where there is silence, you will hear me.

Keep going please. You will get to where you are heading.

Ok. Ok I will keep going.

Wonderful! You are learning! I LOVE YOU ALWAYS 🙂

Insights from this process:

I can see two images in the art – that of the bird and that of a face (looks like a duck that has the leaves as the mouth and is looking in the opposite direction to the bird). This is the second time I have drawn a two-headed image like this.

After typing up this conversation between myself and soul, as well as about the two images/faces I keep seeing in my art, I suddenly wonder if these are me and soul? We are two sides of the same coin. That means we are one and the same. I feel resonance and a bit of excitement in my body at this idea!

I also wonder what is up in the top right of the page that is still out of view? My curiosity is aroused and I am slightly irritated that I can’t see what is there.

If you are interested in reading more about my process, click on the link below to access my journal notes.

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What does being “ready” look like?

  • Being ready
    Original
  • Being ready
    A face is revealed

Art process: Wednesday 14 August 2019

This artwork was created in response to a question I had from a previous piece of writing where Soul had said “when you are ready, return here and we will continue writing the story”. My question was simply, “what does being ready look like?” as I realised through subsequent art pieces that I was not in fact ready to receive.

Medium

Chalk pastels on mixed media paper

Process

  1. Intention: Show me what being “ready to receive” looks like
  2. I did a guided meditation on feeling your soul.
  3. I put on some music and then started to draw my non-dominant hand to get me out of my head.
  4. After I finished the drawing, my initial impression was that I didn’t know what I had drawn and that my artwork was starting to go all weird. I turned the page around 90 degrees at a time to see if there was anything that jumped out at me. When I turned the page on its side I could see what appeared to be an image of a face.
  5. I then sat down and did some journal writing about my process and to try and understand what I had drawn in relation to my intention.

My thoughts on this artwork

The face image appears to me to be a reflection of myself – a mirror image even – it is leaning in towards me as I lean in to draw the image.

Everything in the image feels contained, which is strange. I would have expected being ready to mean feeling free and have let go of everything, making a flowing image of some sort.

There is a sense of the face being poised for something. I wonder what? To be noticed or to notice something itself?

Being poised for something – I guess that is a pretty accurate way of describing being ready! So what does it mean to be poised then?

You are in position. You are holding that position. You are waiting expectantly for something to happen.

The word POISED is definitely the keyword that speaks to me with this art. It gives me the impression of being composed, still and balanced. It feels like I need to quieten my mind, calm my emotions and still my body in readiness for the next stage to present itself, whatever that may be.

In doing some research on google, I noted that one definition about a lack of poise related to a lack of confidence and I definitely still have that theme running within me. I have assumed that the lack of confidence was just in myself but perhaps it is also in the guidance and wisdom that I am seeking. I am not sure what it is and whether I can rely on it. I lack trust and faith in it.

I find it interesting that the responses I am getting through my art at the moment are quite literal and once I become aware of this, it seems such an obvious answer that I almost feel silly for asking. However, at the time, all that was running in my head was “I don’t know the answer, someone tell me!”. This speaks to the lack of confidence and it appears that the current art process work is working with me to reflect back to me that I do indeed have the answers and know. It is helping to build my confidence.

The path forward then is one of learning to still my mind and all of these “fear” roadblocks that keep coming up. When I really examine the fear it is clear to me that I don’t actually feel fear, it is just a mental construct that is running interference. This has to be based upon an image of myself that needs to change. And to change it, I need to be able to see through the thoughts; I need to be poised for seeing what is on the other side once everything becomes completely still. Then I will be ready for the next stage.

If you are interested in reading more about what came up for me during this process, click on my journal notes below:

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