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Heart to art conversation with Soul

Following on from my art piece called Inner Smile, I had a chat with Soul about how to further the process for writing Soul’s story…

22 August 2019

Soul, what process do I need to do to start writing your story?

Hello dear one. Are you not already writing? You have set expectations for what writing my story means. This doesn’t serve you. We are working together and talking now. The current path is to build a relationship to strengthen our connection. Who knows, the story might be happening now. You might be part of the story. We are one after all! When you see yourself more clearly you will no longer ask about what to do to create; you will simply create.

So we just keep doing what we are doing now?

Yes. What is a story without some sort of creative tension? You would do well to stop thinking about writing my story and to allow yourself to become the story. You are creating yourself. This is your journey home.

I am the story? So I am writing about myself and my process? I am already doing that though. I don’t see how that is going to translate into anything that I can do something with to turn into a career.

No. You don’t see. And you won’t see for some time yet. These expectations do you no good. They cause you pain and unease, which is anathema to the goal you are striving for. You doubt yourself and this process. You fear failing. It’s time to cultivate silence and to leave your small thoughts on how this should be behind. It’s time to expand and unwind. Trust is key.

Ok. I feel a sense of disappointment that I am not going to start channelling a story and a sense of loss that my idea of being a writer is not going to happen. I do enjoy our time together though so I will keep connecting in and see where this takes me, even if it is just for me.

And all of the world will see. Trust me on this. For now, let go of the tight hold you have on what your destiny should be and just be…with me. I love you always. Smile now!

LOL ok wise one. I’ll smile now! Thank you. I appreciate you taking the time to be with me.

The pleasure is all mine. I come alive when you consciously connect with me and I’m always here with you and for you. We are united as one.

The moral to the story is: Let go of the idea that I have of what being a writer is and what the outputs of this process will be. Easier said than done, but it doesn’t seem to be causing me anything but grief so it’s worth a shot!

Inner Smile

inner smile

Art process journal: 22 August 2019

I didn’t have an intention for what to draw today. I just wanted to see what came up for me while holding the space of being ready.

Initial thoughts:

I have left the background white and have not filled in the entire page, which is very uncharacteristic of me. I usually don’t like white space but leaving it in this piece, I noticed that it makes the colours stand out more. The spiral eye is very prominent and is the first thing that my eye is drawn to. The art feels like a technicolour being is looking back at me with a smile. It also feels like the green is a serpent/snake. There is also the black at the meeting point of all of the colours, which I am not sure what that represents.

Spontaneous writing to understand more about the art

I feel like the snake has something to say so I did some spontaneous writing starting with the phrase: I am <insert colour> and I have come to tell you…

I AM GREEN AND I HAVE COME TO TELL YOU that the healing journey home has begun. Rest your focus on me and relax your mind and body. I see you. I like what I see. Allow me to work with your mind and third eye. Where ever there is doubt or tension, invite me to put you at ease.

I AM GOLD AND I HAVE COME TO TELL YOU that I am the sparkling dust of your very own shooting star. I am here to illuminate the darkness and to awaken the creative well within you that has lain dormant. What you seek, you shall find within you, deep, deep, deep inside. Let the light of the stars guide you home and shine brightly so that you may see with clarity. I am the light at the end of the tunnel. I am the yellow brick road. Follow me home.

I AM BLACK AND I HAVE COME TO TELL YOU that there is beauty in the darkness and that which you cannot see. You cannot have light without the absence of light. I am the thoughts that are yet to be thought. I am the night before the dawn. I am potential yet to take form. Do not fear me. Come closer and feel what it is like to hear my silence and to see nothing. If you listen closely you will find the inspiration you are looking for. Look at me and see nothing slowly expanding into eternity.  Let go and let flow deeply with me. I am your home.

Note: I didn’t expect black to have so much to say for so little on the page!

I AM YOUR INNER SMILE AND I HAVE COME TO TELL YOU welcome! It’s lovely to see you and connect again. I am more alive through your inner awareness than you realise. Step back and let go of all expectations. Simply meet me. A smile will always put you at ease. Allow your mind to smile more often. It is too rigid and locked. It focuses too intently on one thing at the expense of nothing, the all that is. Move your focus more to the white space and breathe. This is where your energy needs to be to connect more fully with me. Nothing is what it seems. Always look upon me with a measure of detachment, and keep practicing on stepping back further. You are holding on too tight and it is distorting your vision. All energy is in a grand cosmic dance. Are you moving freely or are you stuck on one thing, clinging onto something that does not serve you?

Smile and the whole cosmos smiles with you. Cultivate your inner smile to allow the light to shine through and illuminate that which is ready for you to let go of as you make your way home.

If you are interested in reading more about my process, click on my notes below:

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What does being “ready” look like?

  • Being ready
    Original
  • Being ready
    A face is revealed

Art process: Wednesday 14 August 2019

This artwork was created in response to a question I had from a previous piece of writing where Soul had said “when you are ready, return here and we will continue writing the story”. My question was simply, “what does being ready look like?” as I realised through subsequent art pieces that I was not in fact ready to receive.

Medium

Chalk pastels on mixed media paper

Process

  1. Intention: Show me what being “ready to receive” looks like
  2. I did a guided meditation on feeling your soul.
  3. I put on some music and then started to draw my non-dominant hand to get me out of my head.
  4. After I finished the drawing, my initial impression was that I didn’t know what I had drawn and that my artwork was starting to go all weird. I turned the page around 90 degrees at a time to see if there was anything that jumped out at me. When I turned the page on its side I could see what appeared to be an image of a face.
  5. I then sat down and did some journal writing about my process and to try and understand what I had drawn in relation to my intention.

My thoughts on this artwork

The face image appears to me to be a reflection of myself – a mirror image even – it is leaning in towards me as I lean in to draw the image.

Everything in the image feels contained, which is strange. I would have expected being ready to mean feeling free and have let go of everything, making a flowing image of some sort.

There is a sense of the face being poised for something. I wonder what? To be noticed or to notice something itself?

Being poised for something – I guess that is a pretty accurate way of describing being ready! So what does it mean to be poised then?

You are in position. You are holding that position. You are waiting expectantly for something to happen.

The word POISED is definitely the keyword that speaks to me with this art. It gives me the impression of being composed, still and balanced. It feels like I need to quieten my mind, calm my emotions and still my body in readiness for the next stage to present itself, whatever that may be.

In doing some research on google, I noted that one definition about a lack of poise related to a lack of confidence and I definitely still have that theme running within me. I have assumed that the lack of confidence was just in myself but perhaps it is also in the guidance and wisdom that I am seeking. I am not sure what it is and whether I can rely on it. I lack trust and faith in it.

I find it interesting that the responses I am getting through my art at the moment are quite literal and once I become aware of this, it seems such an obvious answer that I almost feel silly for asking. However, at the time, all that was running in my head was “I don’t know the answer, someone tell me!”. This speaks to the lack of confidence and it appears that the current art process work is working with me to reflect back to me that I do indeed have the answers and know. It is helping to build my confidence.

The path forward then is one of learning to still my mind and all of these “fear” roadblocks that keep coming up. When I really examine the fear it is clear to me that I don’t actually feel fear, it is just a mental construct that is running interference. This has to be based upon an image of myself that needs to change. And to change it, I need to be able to see through the thoughts; I need to be poised for seeing what is on the other side once everything becomes completely still. Then I will be ready for the next stage.

If you are interested in reading more about what came up for me during this process, click on my journal notes below:

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The All that Is

I am nothing and yet,
I am everything

I am pure unlimited potential
Of universal power exponential

I am the essence of a star
The divine spark from a far

I am the silence, before came the word
Beyond space and time, where god first stirred

I am the ocean beneath the sea
This is where you will find me
Beyond all fear
Meet me here

Zero point connectivity

I am nothing, the all that is

– Lys 2008

Some inspired thoughts that came to me many years ago, which I always come back to for reflection. These words remind me that the power of our creative potential comes from within; it is always there for those who are willing to still themselves and listen to the voice that rises from the silence. This voice desires to be heard and known; it patiently waits for us to realise that we are ONE – the creator, the canvas and creation itself. The gift of accepting and following our own creative process is a beautiful path to self realisation.

Kindness and love dance across her lips. Wisdom is her greatest gift and she has no fear of sharing it with the world.

– P31:26

I came across this quote the other day in a shop and had to write it down. The prose touched my soul and awoke a memory within; this is what I am here for.